Sunday, February 22, 2009

If only If only Current mood: ashamed I wish I could take it all back. Regrets never fixed anything. I wish I could have seen what you saw in me. I love you so much. You deserved so much better. I want you to listen to deep inside of you. its me, its us... It was real! it was all so real from dirtbike and boy to the fair to winter formal every second, Your just better than me you deserve better. You need better. I tried to give you better. I am weak. I am sorry. god I'm so sorry. you have no idea how much I hate myself. when you see me I'm dying inside. I'm not okay. I'm not ignoring you. I can't talk to you. I've tried. Times I wanted to stop you in the hall and hug you like nothing every happened. I wish it didnt end like this. I wish I was as strong as you. I wish you would have come with me to evans. I wish I didnt wish so much. My keyboard has tears on it and my head hurtss My heart is pounding so hard and I get that feeling in my stomatch remember when I talked about bad butterflies Idk if youll read this but it doesnt matter Im sorry. 9:36 PM 0 Comments 0 Kudos (Give Kudos) 2 Kudos 1 Kudos 0 Kudos Print